Hello 2017, An Introduction

The 2016 Office Xmas Palm Reader Prophecy has foretold that 2017 is supposed to be the year where I own it and that 2016 could be counted as a rebuild/transitional phase of sorts.

Now, I don’t put much on divination – especially towards far scoping kind of readings, I prefer to put my money on the short scoping kinds; the ones within a month or so outcome, not year(s) later.

Even if I were to bank on that reading, it’s just not in my nature to leave things to chance – what’s the point of being a sorcerer then?

So with that said, time to stack the variables towards my favour. I have a couple of goals I am focusing on this year, trying to simplify it because that’s one of my main issues, too many projects going on. I really want to focus on music, and the quality of my life.

Simplifying my repertoire of magickal techniques as well so that I have the flexibility to activate them on the fly. This also serves to sharpen the tools I already employ, start mastering instead of dabbling on new things. I am still open to new ideas in regards to the macro side of magick (theurgy, HGA, astral planes, etc) but on the micro side of things, I will just be employing certain techniques I already use and try to sharpen them and think of ways of employing them in different ways that has not been done before.

KISS as they would say.

So what does this all mean? I feel like basically, magick will be taking a different role in my life. If this was a basketball team; instead of being a starter, magick would become the 6th man of the team in my life.

Unfortunately, I can’t let go of my “mundane” hopes and dreams. In a different scenario, I could see myself letting go of everything and becoming a vagabond rebel sorcerer but that is not the cards I’ve been dealt w/ at the moment. I can only work with the hand I got, try to pull out a winning deal, and hope for the best.

Sayonara 2016, Allons-y 2017!

New Year New Look

Ah, new years, it’s my most favorite time of the year, lol.

Now I know what the naysayers have been saying about this time of the year but fluckit – I love the energy that surrounds it, I love the potential it brings but to be fair, I don’t make new years resolutions, I especially don’t publish it online. I take this time to set the mood for the coming year, and take some time to make some observations about myself.

This past year has been a decline, a sort of self destruction that should usher something new. I am in the process of rebuilding towards something new, and hopefully something better. If my journals has anything to say about me, is that I haven’t changed much – the core of me, and my issues are pretty much the same, I just added new tools in life to make certain things better but for the most part, I’m still the same – if that is a good thing or a bad thing.

I have to get better, I want to get better.  If there is a game where I want to win it all, it’s the game that is called “Life”.

So time to shift my priorities, where my goals are, where I want to go, what I want to become.

Goodbye 2016, Hello 2017.

A Year End Review

Maybe this is kinda early but what the heck, I do what I want, lol. 😛

This year has been a slow, if not halted, progress with me. Magick has taken a very sidelined position since life has decided to bombard me w/ life stuff that needed to be taken care of.

This is no excuse whatsoever, maybe just a lazy way to look at it. I could’ve done better, but I didn’t. Even to this day, the fire that I had maybe years ago has substantially dimmed down.

But with that said, I don’t plan on dropping this anytime soon, it’s just a thing that’s taken a hold of me and won’t let go. 🙂

Going forward, actually beginning as of today, I am working on reintegrating magick into my life in a practical way – one of the things I noticed was I got stuck into the idea of the Great Work, and the grandeur and fantasticalism of it all. I’m stripping it all down and bringing it back to the fundamentals, no fancy shmanzy stuff.

Every resource I have at my disposal, be it muggle or magickal means, will be diverted and focused into strengthening my mind, body & spirit.

Back into the wild. 🙂

 

 

Read Between The Lines

This week, I found myself unhappy with my system of divination – the source of it is for the most part, the cumbersome and tedious way of going about it. Roll dice, interpret, hold pendulum, ask question, perceive omens, wait and discern.

Maybe I’m a little spoiled by Google, it can do so many things with it that I want a system like that placed in the magickal sphere. Maybe if I had better control or access to the akashic records then I wouldn’t have this issue but well….if I only had Jedi like powers, I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be having these issues anyways.

So I think it’s time to move away from the dices and the pendulums, and do a little upgrading.

I want quick, precise, and intuitive.

I think I’m ok if I spend a little time working on it, and having something that I actually would like and enjoy using.

Now, off to the drawing board. 🙂

Brain Magick – Overheating

Since I started manually trying to “hack” certain processes my body performs, I’ve noticed that I’ve been over heating as of late. Every day, once a day, in different times, I would feel my bodys’ temperature go hot, for the lack of a better term.

I started to notice it when I started to get a headache more frequently, I thought it was due to me working out and some of my back muscles were sore, thus affecting my neck muscles, thus giving me a headache. It could be that I am getting a headache/migraine but why the sudden spike in occurrences? Maybe it is even time to stop smoking and the headaches are some sort of symptoms of a greater issue?

It could be one of the many reasons but why would my body go hot though? And why would an Advil alleviate it sometimes?

I’ve been trying to optimize my weight loss by magick’ing my body to go down to 15% body fat, while actually working out – trying to avoid crap food while I’m at it as well and drinking loads of water.

For the most part, it’s been working out pretty swell but the results are not something to scream about – it looks like I’m losing the weight the natural way, without any help of accelerators.

When this issue starts to happen though, I just lay down for a bit and pore exhale “heat” out of my body, especially around the brain area. I am trying to avoid using medicine as  much as possible since I don’t know the exact reasons of this issue.

Going forward, I will probably take more cold showers frequently and try to do some energy maintenance. Physically and magickally cool myself down but with that said, how does that affect my process hacking, should I just stop it anyways since the result/side effects is not even worth it?

Really wish they had those body tech augmentations right about now, lol.

Teaching An Old Dog New Tricks

So my self imposed vacation is going to be done soon. My birthday is coming up and I’ve managed to get a bunch of stuff done in my absence in the workforce. As much as I would love to stay like this, I need to get back to earning those benjamins, lol – I want a new drumset. 😛

I’m planning to go do a minimalist “bushcrafting” for a weekend, just looking for spots where I don’t have to go far out of the city but far enough from the city, and traffic, so I can have some peace of mind. I’m just looking for foresty spots where I can hide out, lol.

Anyways, I started looking at jobs at the market; what am I qualified for and what I am over qualified for. I would love to start at the bottom again but my resume is looking to qualified – over the decade and the half of being in the machine, I excelled at it. Started as a cashier, became a supervisor; started as a cook, became a shift manager, started in data entry, became a manager, warehouse person to logistics coordinator to operations manager.

You get the idea, I’m the typical over achiever.

A decade and a half of that and I would really just want a relaxing 9 to 5 job. In retrospect, it was very mentally and physically taxing to some extent, to do these managerial jobs day in and day out. My last gig, I was dreading every day thinking what kind of fuckupness will happen that day, what kind of lie would I need to produce to smoothen things out, who is gonna try to give me flack so in turn, I can scream at them, etc etc.

So I look at the jobs I want, and the jobs that I an qualified for, and how far they are from where I live (I’m not willing to trek far for a job) – these are the variables I look at but when I look at jobs that I think are “beneath” me, I get a sense of anxiety and dread.

I don’t actually feel that there are jobs beneath me nor do I believe I feel entitled to judge a person by their occupation, that I think I am higher than them, we do what we can with what we have – it’s my ego, it thinks that I should be working in a higher station since I’ve already reached that height and I shouldn’t go lower anymore, as well the money is pretty low in comparison to what my standard has been as of late ($35+ an hour down to $12ish).

Well, the thing is, when I look at those high end jobs, I also feel that anxiety and dread. The mind and body remembers all the pain and crap I had to go through during those tenures.

So in conclusion, I am confused as to how I should go about it?

Now that I wrote this all down, and somewhat has a coherent sense of what I am thinking – I now feel it is stupid that I am even going through those motions.

First off, there is no guarantee that I’ll get the job. Secondly, I always start at the bottom and work my way to the top.

Keep It Simple Stupid, and remember how you get by in life anyways, charge in recklessly.

It hasn’t failed you yet!

Brain Magick – Optimization Ideas

I like to talk about the “romantic” altruistic side of magickal development in my blog but who doesn’t, and we should probably all strive for some semblance of that in our lives. However, I do like my sorcery and the practical side of magick.

It would be nice to be able to read peoples mind, influence them with a spoken sentence, make yourself disappear from their perception but to be honest, I am ok with working with what I’ve got, and improving and developing them through the help of magick. Besides, instead of trying to achieve those “cool” things, working on the things I’ve already got are actually more practical and will be able to help me to achieve certain things – the cool stuff can come in after.

Yesterday, I was inspired to create an “analytical” servitor, wanted to boost my processing speeds and optimize the way I am learning and applying myself. I was ready to perform my working when I realize something – why do I need to create a servitor when all I really need is to optimize my brain? After realizing that “duh” moment, I set on to plan what I want to achieve.

This is not something new, I’m always trying to optimize my brain for effectiveness. It’s a weird sense of feeling, I feel like I am part of my body but I am not part of my body – like a pilot whose cockpit is the brain, and I’m hacking away with what I’ve got, modifying and refining.

So a couple of ideas I would like to achieve in this endeavour;

  • Limiter Release: I’ve always heard that our body is capable of doing great feats of strength and that our brain has a “limiter” on it so that we are only using a low percentage of what we can do. I’ve also heard that our body is not able to handle the strain thus will incapacitate us in a great duration of a time to recover.Since I also employ strength training, (I am particularly weak at the moment, I need to get those numbers up, I’ve only gotten back to seriously training and at my strongest, I was only lifting 200+ lbs) I was thinking to train my body to be able to withstand around 400+ lbs of weight, maybe 500+lbs (the basic movements; deadlift, squat, bench, etc) and then release the limiter so that I can lift to 600+ lbs (I don’t know the percentage of that type of strength in comparison to my potential unlocked strength). I mainly want to achieve this so I can achieve an explosive force of strength.

    Limiter Release is such an interesting idea. I assume with the premise above, that it applies in our actual brains processing speeds as well, and that we are only doing a certain amount of speed to avoid wear and tear, over heating, etc. I imagine an unlocked brain similar to those “bullet” time moments we always seem to have in regards to near death experiences, or Action Man like analytical system.

  • Full Body Control: Full control of your bodies functions; from healing, to strengthening, etc. I’ve been toying with increasing my brains synapses to increasing my metabolic rate but the gist of it is that since the brain is the control hub, and gaining full control of this hub, which controls your bodily process consciously and subconsciously, you are able to control the many process our body does.The variable that I worry about when I do this, like for example, forcefully increasing the speed of digestion or increasing blood flow towards a certain part of the body or increase adrenaline, my lack of knowledge of biology and the fact that the body is working in synch as it is, I don’t know the type of side effects that can occur. For example, I was trying to speed up my digestion and I thought that digestion occurs due to the stomach acids and if I can increase the amount or potency, it will go faster – then I thought what kind of side effects would occur? Would my stomach lining be able to handle it, would I end up bursting my stomach?
  • Total Recall: Pretty straightforward. The ability to memorize everything, and be able to recall in full detail that memory.
  • Analytical Speed: Increase the way I analyse and process information.
  • Reptilian Brain: Give more control to this part of the brain. I tend to be too intellectual, and too inside of my brain at times and I would like to give more control to this part of the brain, especially on things I am not too comfortable with – like social events I am uncomfortable with, or dealing with aggression. I feel like my reptilian brain is in control during the times when I am in physical competition, and I don’t mind it that way – now to harness it for my advantage.

Now, these are all ideas and theories that I am working on and would like to achieve.

The science isn’t exactly exact and the magick part is going to be funky at most but I’ve had success though with increased healing, increased temporary strength, been able to grow hair on a certain spot – I’ve experienced that “clarity” or soft zone, as the sportys’ would say, numerous times.

Think of the possibilities.