Recently, while I haven’t taken a full dive back into mysteries of the universe, I’ve restarted some of my previous practices, albeit updated to a new framework I am working on. There has been some recent interests of mine that I feel like would benefit from an esoteric boost of sorts.

Mental Sphere: I am looking to activate more of my brain utilization. I know the science if that we do fully utilize our brain but not at full power (and not only 10% like what was previously propagated). There are still limiters in place so we don’t die from pushing our body to the limit and I do believe that synapses do eventually de-activate from non-usage.

My goal is to activate more synapses and utilize it towards my current life goals while min/max power usage. My current goals are mental gymnastics heavy and I will take any advantage I get.

Healing Magicks: My pet project (kinda), I’m always interested in some sort of longevity type of projects (and I also have a personal reason for this). With that said, this is the type of magick I am most familiar with.

I think the method I am working with is useful but I need to learn more about the human body itself, like I am going to go deep dive down to the cellular level.

Control’ish Magick: Now this is my real pet project (lol), just always been interested in psychic’ish or evil eye’ish type of skills.

With the framework I am working with, I feel like it would make it more effective by learning the muggle systems that runs it.

So I am off to hit the books, learn more things about the world so I can try to affect it in the “unknown” world.



Before I took a long “vacation” from the esoteric, I was working on this theory of mine that magick is some sort of undefined energy, and that all “systems” of magick; be it hoodoo to taoism, work under the same premise. The only reason they are “different” is due to cultural interpretations of the past.

And that the rules of tradition set upon each “system” is not exactly a universal but cultural.

It sounds very “chaotey” but to be honest, that was one of the reasons I gravitated towards chaos magick in the first place; not the reckless abandon that we normally see with their standard practitioners but the reasonable disregard of the “rules” that was set by its founding members.

So what are the things that separates my version of magick with the traditional version of magick;

  • Magickal Energy: I don’t actually see it as a force that can be gathered but to be controlled and directed, that it’s actually all around us as it is and that we just tap into it and “direct” it to our desires.
  • Magickal Circles: Not necessary in my book. In the sense where it is used to activate some sort of “energy” field that is congruent with the magickal world. If the universe and magickal force is all around us, why do we even need it.
  • Traditional Means: Keeping an athame in a magickal box to keep the “energy” and “blessing” on it to keep it holy is not a thing for me. If I grab this pencil and I deem it a magickal tool, that should be it.

Overall, I’m not downgrading on the other magickal systems of the world; if it works, it works. I just personally want to see a different world that was seen by our predecessors many a years ago.

It’s 2021 already, I think the praxis needs somewhat of an upgrade.


When I decided to take the path of becoming a sorcerer a few decades ago, my motivation was pretty clear; to rebel against the system. Call it God(s), The Force, etc but I wanted to break against the rules it set to me.

Then as time passed by, my motivation changed to power, to control, to whatever it is now.

During this pandemic, I made some life moves to go forward, but then I had to reset back to the previous arrangement that I had. Not that it failed….. Again, I had to make a choice, and the choice was easy to make due to personal circumstances but yet again, I’m down in a path because of the system.

I hate it, I hate being part of the cog but to be honest – I know a part of me knows that if I completely step away from the cog, I step away from one of the most important things in my life. I am extremely frustrated by this situation but I am, in all sense, powerless against it (as I already made the decision, and will stick by it till an outcome has been achieved).

With this sort of mental venting done, what was the outcome you wonder?

To control whatever I can at the moment. Not very profound, I must admit (lol). This sounds like a self help sort of theme but if I am tied down due to external circumstances, I can always strengthen my internal mindset, resolve, and personal power.

So I started to practice a little bit again, internal “tricks” to boost my mental and physical well being. My practice from a decade ago to now is completely different but the themes are still the same; increasing my personal power and have some control over the external forces in my life.