Whats New Kitty Cat?

I’ve been out of touch with the whole occult scene for a decade now – what’s new and exciting these days?

The last time I was active here, it was pretty bustling – lots of new faces, lots of new magickal systems, lots of players basically. But now, it seems so quiet? Where do I go to get inspired?

[edit] A lot of the old haunts I used to hang out in has an odd feeling towards it… like a polish of monetization all over it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not being down on said people/entities, my most successful sorcery are financial sorcerys’; but I do cringe on the overly, in your face, I’m making money off you kinda shenanigans.

Just an observation and personal bias, not life or financial advice xD

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Recently, while I haven’t taken a full dive back into mysteries of the universe, I’ve restarted some of my previous practices, albeit updated to a new framework I am working on. There has been some recent interests of mine that I feel like would benefit from an esoteric boost of sorts.

Mental Sphere: I am looking to activate more of my brain utilization. I know the science if that we do fully utilize our brain but not at full power (and not only 10% like what was previously propagated). There are still limiters in place so we don’t die from pushing our body to the limit and I do believe that synapses do eventually de-activate from non-usage.

My goal is to activate more synapses and utilize it towards my current life goals while min/max power usage. My current goals are mental gymnastics heavy and I will take any advantage I get.

Healing Magicks: My pet project (kinda), I’m always interested in some sort of longevity type of projects (and I also have a personal reason for this). With that said, this is the type of magick I am most familiar with.

I think the method I am working with is useful but I need to learn more about the human body itself, like I am going to go deep dive down to the cellular level.

Control’ish Magick: Now this is my real pet project (lol), just always been interested in psychic’ish or evil eye’ish type of skills.

With the framework I am working with, I feel like it would make it more effective by learning the muggle systems that runs it.

So I am off to hit the books, learn more things about the world so I can try to affect it in the “unknown” world.

Motivation

When I decided to take the path of becoming a sorcerer a few decades ago, my motivation was pretty clear; to rebel against the system. Call it God(s), The Force, etc but I wanted to break against the rules it set to me.

Then as time passed by, my motivation changed to power, to control, to whatever it is now.

During this pandemic, I made some life moves to go forward, but then I had to reset back to the previous arrangement that I had. Not that it failed….. Again, I had to make a choice, and the choice was easy to make due to personal circumstances but yet again, I’m down in a path because of the system.

I hate it, I hate being part of the cog but to be honest – I know a part of me knows that if I completely step away from the cog, I step away from one of the most important things in my life. I am extremely frustrated by this situation but I am, in all sense, powerless against it (as I already made the decision, and will stick by it till an outcome has been achieved).

With this sort of mental venting done, what was the outcome you wonder?

To control whatever I can at the moment. Not very profound, I must admit (lol). This sounds like a self help sort of theme but if I am tied down due to external circumstances, I can always strengthen my internal mindset, resolve, and personal power.

So I started to practice a little bit again, internal “tricks” to boost my mental and physical well being. My practice from a decade ago to now is completely different but the themes are still the same; increasing my personal power and have some control over the external forces in my life.

A World of Wishes

As you can see from my last post, I haven’t wrote anything about the occult since 2019. That is even a tad more false as I probably didn’t do anything slightly magickal for a half a decade or so.

To be honest, life just took over and the ROI of practicing magick wasn’t enough – also coupled with my dissatisfaction that my progress wasn’t going anywhere. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t think my time with sorcery was a waste of time – I gained so much of it, especially in a sense of widening my scope of the world and looking through it in different view. Life just really took over and my priorities shifted over to more pressing things.

With that said, looking at my current self; it feels like something is missing. I’ve been feeling it for awhile – I feel like my mental balance is out of whack, what used to be a sharp sword has now turned into a dull blade. Things I never felt before, I am now recognizing (which I don’t know if it’s a good or bad thing)

One of the things that was good with occult practice was that there was a beneficial side effect of having discipline, something that I am currently lacking at the moment. It feels like, if I were to quantify mental energy in levels of 1 – 100, it would be under 50 and since my mental state is so weak – I’ve been more susceptible to mental afflictions I normally didn’t let in my mental sphere.

Another Crossroad?

So here we are again, at another impasse in life… What do I do? I am not fond of my current mental state, I do not enjoy lacking mental tools and control over myself. I am also at the phase of my life where I want to enjoy it, and ultimately be happy.

Will taking up the mantle of sorcerer make me happy? Will it make me fulfilled again? I feel like in my previous endeavor, I didn’t make enough of a progress that I wanted to but it didn’t make me feel unhappy – the fact that I was adventuring through unexplored territories made me feel at ease.

No matter how I proceed, I do know that I need to make current changes in my life – recognizing this is the first step of it.

Magick, As Art and Science

Magick has been a part of human history since the discovery of fire, from the great magis’ of Egyptian lore, to the modern kaotes of today. Magick has been a part of human lore for quite some time now but no one has been able to explain it, or come close to proving it to the masses.

Yet, we have thousands of practitioners all around the work partaking in this art. Why? If I’m such a logical person, choose to spend my time in research, follow and practice such an arcane and archaic paradigm of the world.

This is a complicated answer that boils down to personal beliefs and a gamble.

Why Magick?

For one thing, it is my belief to be open minded and not to choose to close any doors in expanding and evolving human evolution.

I believe that magick is one of the paths that one can.

Even with the growth and evolution of science, there’s still a whole lot of things in the universe that one can’t explain, and the more we delve into the scientific studies, a lot more things come into light that we can’t explain (i.e how the brain works, or gravity).

Think of the things we have now, that people of the past did not have. In their eyes, cellphones and guns would’ve witchcraft and sorcery.

I truly believe some aspects of magick are futuristic science that we haven’t been able to explain, and it such a bizarre and archaic subject that no one really wants to study it in light of the modern era.

Secondly, for me, there has been enough patterns for me to resolve that magick exists.

Personally, I’ve experienced some things that can’t be explained by mass hysteria or a proper trick. There are tons of reports out there from people as well who have shared the same, albeit somewhat different, experiences but the data is there; there are enough people experiencing the same thing so unless it can be properly discounted by hard facts, the there is still room enough to at least be open about it.

Art & Science?

During my time and research, I’ve found that even with all of the social and regional aspects that affects magical systems and traditions of current and past – they all hold a very humanistic touch to them.

From ritual garbs and gestures from the choice of materials to choose, from how high level constructs (aka demons, deities from Greek mythology, etc) closely resemble human aspects.

That’s why I believe that magick is an art first, backed by future science.

It is driven by emotion and imagination, and is powered by forces beyond our recognition and measure.

It is a personal power.

Where To Go?

To be honest, I don’t know where the flow will take it and us but all I know if I will follow the path of finding out the truth behind this universe.