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BACK TO BASICS

On my journey to achieve mastery over the Great Work, I find myself going back to the basics of my practice, trying to see what new insights I can glean from them from a perspective of someone who is not so new anymore.

WITCHCRAFT gave me my beginnings, this is where it all began.

CHAOS MAGICK gave me philosophy and a mindset on how to approach things.

HERMETICS gave me my foundation, my worldview of things above, below, and beyond.

So for now, I’ve resorted to reading what I think are the staples of these systems. The Complete Book of Witchcraft from Buckland, Oven Ready Chaos by Hine, and IIH by Bardon. I hope that by utilizing the knowledge from these books and practices, I will be able to have a somewhat complete, and working semblance of a system of sorcery that one day, I may be able to share with others.

12.01.2014 PROJECT UPDATES

MENTAL STATE: better

I’ve been able to get some meditation in, sharpening the mind back into shape. Playing music has been helping, actually meditating has been helping. The more I contemplate, the more I realize that it’s not that I can’t focus (I’m focus all the time, I’m like a bulldog at work) – it’s more that I can’t quiet my mind so my void meditation needs some work….working on it.

PHYSICAL STATE: needs improvement

I need to step up on the physical side of things.

Just recently, again, I got hit with my yearly feet-to-nitis (too much workload on my lower body and my weakest/most worked part aka the feet gets hurt because of it) – luckily I was able to use some healing magick, coupled with my sharpened mental skills, and recovery is way better and faster than previous times.

I need to work on my lower body though….more flexibility.

SPIRITUAL STATE: same ol, same ol.

Nothing new to report on this front, lol.

10.30.2014 Project Updates

Finally, after a hiatus of basically going dark with no goal in mind, I am back. A lot rusty in every aspect of my practice but at least, my spark is back and ready to go at it. Coincidentally, it’s work w/ IIH that got me back into the groove of things again.

But with that said, my whole being is out of whack, due to lack of practice so here’s a little overview of what I need to work on to get back into the shape of things.

MENTAL STATE: lackluster

I believe it all starts with the mind and if the mind is not sharp, the rest will degrade as well (see next paragraph). I feel that the state of mind has dulled down. I lost the will and the fight.

Part of it is my antagonistic nature regarding the job that I am currently trudging along, painfully, part of it was my own self-doubts, part of it was my inner demons that I’ve let run amok. Overall, I lost the goal in sight and with losing that, lost my way.

My solution for this is start meditating again, back to the basics, sharpen this dull sword into something sharp and deadly again.

I can’t leave my work at the moment and since it really isn’t a priority in my life (even though it does take alot of my time), I can just kinda sit on it – my plan is to focus more on what I need to get done and kinda let my attention to my job wane. It’s hard but it must be done or I will go crazee.

As for my personal demons and doubts, they are a work in progress but for the most part – I can safely say they are actually the more manageable parts of this process.

PHYSICAL STATE: lackluster

I’ve let the temple that is my body go, not in a physical “I was a hottie who turned into a fatty” way..more so that the little upkeep things that I used to do has gone down the drain; training, taking showers, tooth-brushing, breathing exercises, unkempt hair, etc – all down the drain. I’m surprised that no one has complained about my truly bummish looks, lol.

So I’ve slowly started to get myself back into a routine, beat my old bummy self back into fighting form.

Next bit is functional training.

Then focusing on healing the parts that are ailing and need improvement and attention.

 SPIRITUAL STATE: decent

On this aspect, while I am a bit rusty, I still got it. Energy control is still there, accumulation is a little slow. Communication w/ entities are still ok. It’s like riding a bike, lol. Initially though, when I was really starting to get the rust off – everything was slow but I guess when I started to get it flowing again.

Overall, I still have a lot to work on to gain my old “fighting form” – I recently got a tattoo in korean calligraphy that essentially says “strength in mind, body and spirit”.

Time to live up to those words.