Hello 2017, An Introduction

The 2016 Office Xmas Palm Reader Prophecy has foretold that 2017 is supposed to be the year where I own it and that 2016 could be counted as a rebuild/transitional phase of sorts.

Now, I don’t put much on divination – especially towards far scoping kind of readings, I prefer to put my money on the short scoping kinds; the ones within a month or so outcome, not year(s) later.

Even if I were to bank on that reading, it’s just not in my nature to leave things to chance – what’s the point of being a sorcerer then?

So with that said, time to stack the variables towards my favour. I have a couple of goals I am focusing on this year, trying to simplify it because that’s one of my main issues, too many projects going on. I really want to focus on music, and the quality of my life.

Simplifying my repertoire of magickal techniques as well so that I have the flexibility to activate them on the fly. This also serves to sharpen the tools I already employ, start mastering instead of dabbling on new things. I am still open to new ideas in regards to the macro side of magick (theurgy, HGA, astral planes, etc) but on the micro side of things, I will just be employing certain techniques I already use and try to sharpen them and think of ways of employing them in different ways that has not been done before.

KISS as they would say.

So what does this all mean? I feel like basically, magick will be taking a different role in my life. If this was a basketball team; instead of being a starter, magick would become the 6th man of the team in my life.

Unfortunately, I can’t let go of my “mundane” hopes and dreams. In a different scenario, I could see myself letting go of everything and becoming a vagabond rebel sorcerer but that is not the cards I’ve been dealt w/ at the moment. I can only work with the hand I got, try to pull out a winning deal, and hope for the best.

Sayonara 2016, Allons-y 2017!

New Year New Look

Ah, new years, it’s my most favorite time of the year, lol.

Now I know what the naysayers have been saying about this time of the year but fluckit – I love the energy that surrounds it, I love the potential it brings but to be fair, I don’t make new years resolutions, I especially don’t publish it online. I take this time to set the mood for the coming year, and take some time to make some observations about myself.

This past year has been a decline, a sort of self destruction that should usher something new. I am in the process of rebuilding towards something new, and hopefully something better. If my journals has anything to say about me, is that I haven’t changed much – the core of me, and my issues are pretty much the same, I just added new tools in life to make certain things better but for the most part, I’m still the same – if that is a good thing or a bad thing.

I have to get better, I want to get better.  If there is a game where I want to win it all, it’s the game that is called “Life”.

So time to shift my priorities, where my goals are, where I want to go, what I want to become.

Goodbye 2016, Hello 2017.

A Year End Review

Maybe this is kinda early but what the heck, I do what I want, lol. 😛

This year has been a slow, if not halted, progress with me. Magick has taken a very sidelined position since life has decided to bombard me w/ life stuff that needed to be taken care of.

This is no excuse whatsoever, maybe just a lazy way to look at it. I could’ve done better, but I didn’t. Even to this day, the fire that I had maybe years ago has substantially dimmed down.

But with that said, I don’t plan on dropping this anytime soon, it’s just a thing that’s taken a hold of me and won’t let go. 🙂

Going forward, actually beginning as of today, I am working on reintegrating magick into my life in a practical way – one of the things I noticed was I got stuck into the idea of the Great Work, and the grandeur and fantasticalism of it all. I’m stripping it all down and bringing it back to the fundamentals, no fancy shmanzy stuff.

Every resource I have at my disposal, be it muggle or magickal means, will be diverted and focused into strengthening my mind, body & spirit.

Back into the wild. 🙂

 

 

Teaching An Old Dog New Tricks

So my self imposed vacation is going to be done soon. My birthday is coming up and I’ve managed to get a bunch of stuff done in my absence in the workforce. As much as I would love to stay like this, I need to get back to earning those benjamins, lol – I want a new drumset. 😛

I’m planning to go do a minimalist “bushcrafting” for a weekend, just looking for spots where I don’t have to go far out of the city but far enough from the city, and traffic, so I can have some peace of mind. I’m just looking for foresty spots where I can hide out, lol.

Anyways, I started looking at jobs at the market; what am I qualified for and what I am over qualified for. I would love to start at the bottom again but my resume is looking to qualified – over the decade and the half of being in the machine, I excelled at it. Started as a cashier, became a supervisor; started as a cook, became a shift manager, started in data entry, became a manager, warehouse person to logistics coordinator to operations manager.

You get the idea, I’m the typical over achiever.

A decade and a half of that and I would really just want a relaxing 9 to 5 job. In retrospect, it was very mentally and physically taxing to some extent, to do these managerial jobs day in and day out. My last gig, I was dreading every day thinking what kind of fuckupness will happen that day, what kind of lie would I need to produce to smoothen things out, who is gonna try to give me flack so in turn, I can scream at them, etc etc.

So I look at the jobs I want, and the jobs that I an qualified for, and how far they are from where I live (I’m not willing to trek far for a job) – these are the variables I look at but when I look at jobs that I think are “beneath” me, I get a sense of anxiety and dread.

I don’t actually feel that there are jobs beneath me nor do I believe I feel entitled to judge a person by their occupation, that I think I am higher than them, we do what we can with what we have – it’s my ego, it thinks that I should be working in a higher station since I’ve already reached that height and I shouldn’t go lower anymore, as well the money is pretty low in comparison to what my standard has been as of late ($35+ an hour down to $12ish).

Well, the thing is, when I look at those high end jobs, I also feel that anxiety and dread. The mind and body remembers all the pain and crap I had to go through during those tenures.

So in conclusion, I am confused as to how I should go about it?

Now that I wrote this all down, and somewhat has a coherent sense of what I am thinking – I now feel it is stupid that I am even going through those motions.

First off, there is no guarantee that I’ll get the job. Secondly, I always start at the bottom and work my way to the top.

Keep It Simple Stupid, and remember how you get by in life anyways, charge in recklessly.

It hasn’t failed you yet!

Specialized Mastery

I fear not the man who has practiced 10,000 kicks once, but I fear the man who has practiced one kick 10,000 times.

Simon @ Trainee Golem Builder recently recommended a book to me called “Mastery” by George Leonard.

This was recommended to me already a time ago but to be honest, just never got around to it because there has been so many more modern takes on the subject and I just ended up reading those instead. I finished reading it today and for the most part, the book is on point but since I’ve read other materials already, it’s nothing new – the only thing I probably didn’t like is his definition of a “hacker” (he might’ve as well used the term “slacker” in his terminology).

Mastery, by definition, is learning a system/methodology by the book and having the skills to implement it. Playing a song note by note is mastery, being able to perform a Karate Kata perfectly is mastery, being able to completely read a person is psychological mastery over someone, taking the Hoodoo correspondence class and using those teachings to effectively perform workings is mastery.

I’ve had a very interesting journey with this thing called “mastery”. All of my life, since I was a kid, to strive for mastery was something that has been ingrained to me.

Going to school and reaching #1 in our class for all those years, being accepted into an “accelerated” class because normal classes were too slow for me and I was classified as “gifted”. From learning how to play basketball, volleyball, tennis, breakdancing, krumping, karate, judo, boxing & self-defense. From playing guitar, to learning and hacking computers, to learning how to juggle, to magick and sorcery. My life is littered with things that I achieved and things that I failed at.

Notice though that I didn’t mentioned I mastered any of this things above…

I admit, I’m not one to master something for the sake of mastery, I prefer to be effective – to me, that is what mastery is. That’s why I’m a sorcerer, that’s why I’m a hacker, I now live in a very “specialized” way of mastery. (And that’s why I had an issue with how the term “hacker” was used in the book.)

Bruce Lee & Tim Ferriss are the pioneers of what I call “specialized mastery”.  These guys threw out the idea of mastering a system for the sake of mastery but for the sake of being effective instead.

For all intents and purposes, my Jeet Kune Do is very different from Bruce Lees JKD; mine is going to be hands heavy, with lots of throws, alot more infighting and midrange, elbows and knees. Bruce would be more mid to long range but can fight close if needed, alot more variety  and technique, close out the fight with some sort of power strike.

Tim Ferriss has built most of his life, hacking away at things and specializing in certain ways to take advantage of a position and eventually achieve results. One of the stories of his success was taking advantage of a loophole to become a TKD champion.

With me, when I play basketball, even though I am big and tall, I never liked playing the forward position – I always preferred the point guard/shooting guard position since those were my strengths; I love shooting the ball, I love dishing out cool assists, and I love shutting down my opponent. I’m not very fast (I was deceptively fast, lol, it’s an illusion that utilizes my length and my dash speed) and I’m not a fancy ball handler but I used what I have to put my team to advantageous positions and eventually win ball games.

Throughout the years, these “jack of all trades” types of people has been looked down upon by people or at least, has a stigma on them because while they are good at something, they’ve never actually mastered the system. To my point, these “jacks” are not so one-dimensional as people portray them to be, while they “mastered” one aspect of the system and utilized it to their advantage, we all put in the time and effort to learn the other aspects of the system, it’s just we chose to boost the strengths we have to be more effective.

Don’t get me wrong, there is a beauty in a way that someone who has mastered a system and made it their own. Word can’t describe it, it just has to be enjoyed and worshipped but like anything in the world, there are many paths to achieve mastery and they put in the work just like everyone else.

By definition, I would be a master of none but nonetheless, I would be very effective in a wide variety of situations with the skill set that I’ve amassed. I might not be able to play Canon in D note by note, vibrato by vibrato but I sure can hell play it loud, overdriven with plenty of wah- wahs.

Mastery is in the eye of the beholder. Mastery is in the context of what is required. If you have to perform a kata, knowing the whole thing is likely the thing that would lead you to success, if you are in a street fight – kata will likely not help you but using the techniques learned in a kata to fight will likely help you more.

 

Magickal Plateau

I was discussing this recently with a couple of associates of mine, how a lot of practitioners seems to have quiet down, and not alot of new content is coming out – mind you, this was in the context of within our own niche community but this can be taken as well in regards to the whole magickal community, and blog-o-sphere in general. I think a couple tried to get something started, promising a couple of posts a week but it has not been a substantial increase

There’s just so many variables out there that can hold down a practitioners growth; be it lack of muse, life getting in the way, responsibilities, etc but it happens, to practitioners in general as a solitary experience but can also apply in our communities.

We just run out of things to say or write, maybe we don’t want to rehash and regurgitate materials that has already been written extensively about (my personal demon of choice, lol). We run into life issues that directs are efforts in magick towards it, not leaving time to play and experiment.

I thought about it and its’ kinda like the stereotype of how one deals with friends growing up; as kids, we are friends with everyone, robust environment and community surround us, and as we grow older till we reach “adulthood” – we rarely make any new friends, solidify the circle of friends you have (if any) and just go about doing your business.

If the new Star Wars Rogue One trailer has taught me anything, is that R E B E L – don’t be boring.

P.S: I would write solutions about “breaking” out of a plateau but I’m pretty sure the internet has that covered.

P.S.S: One of my friends, just quit our old job, and became a real estate agent, which I thought was cool. I always enjoy people who break out of their shell, take risk to become/reach whoever they want to be.

Limitless Possibilities

Why are you trying so hard to hold on to the person you were before…..

You know as practitioners of the wibbly wobblidy of the natural sciences, we have the potential to achieve great things, become the type of people who can achieve the next level of human potential.

But people fear that ever constant force in the world that cannot be stopped – it’s called change. Some people, even us of the magi kind, has a hard time dealing with this.

I was reading something and the quote above caught my eye, and it made me think (ooh boy).

What am I scared of?

I am a person who is well of in life who pretty much grabbed whatever I wanted and went for it and for the most part, succeeded, and I am also a sorcerer who deals with the energies that binds and encroaches every fabric of reality (lol, not that awesome as that line suggest).

I am a winner, in every stereotypical way possible, but as I reach the third month of my retreat – I find myself still lost… Not lost in as to who I am and what makes me tick, more so lost in how I want to approach the world, what kind of journey should I take.

I spent alot of time in my retreat, contemplating, planning whats my next step, etc etc but that restlessness was still inside of me, the uncertainty and anxiety and every time that happened, I repeated to myself the main theme of this whole retreat (which is “patience”) till I calm down and eventually, things are beginning to become clearer for me.

Now time to take that first step and just go with the flow.