A Portrait Of The Occult Blogosphere

The blog-o-sphere has been quiet for some time now and there has been ideas circulating as to why it is but I think for the most part, people are just starting to graduate.

There are pretty much 2 types of people who used to blog; a) are the people who just want to share their experiences, you’ll see those types more in the folky magick types (witchcraft, hoodoo) or in a lesser degree, ceremonial and chaotes.

Type b) are/were the ones that used blogging as a platform to advertise to a certain extent their wares; courses, books, services, etc – but those types have already moved on to other social media platforms such a facebook or twitter.

It felt like in the beginning of the “BOOM” of the occult blog-o-sphere, it was a brand new shiny new toy/gizmo but I guess as time went by, it lost some of its’ lustre – blogging in general is something that you like or you don’t like; I’ve been blogging for years since I’ve discovered it, way before occult blogging in general, so I’ve stuck by it.

Most people would say that people have just moved on to other social media platforms but this happened in the occult forums as well. Most, if not, all of the respectable practitioners have gone underground or went into more secluded groups in the WWW.

I for one can only stand blogging and forums as a format to share and discuss research. It’s a hassle to search for information in a social media platform such as facebook, hassle to read through, hassle to comment and discuss.

It’s like the paradigm shifted with a whole bunch of us and it feels like we’ve all gone into hiding or gone deeper into the rabbit hole; it’s the same feeling when students are trying to finish their research paper/thesis. We all go deep and will maybe come out in the near future.

I for one am ok with the quietness. To me, it feels like more people are into their work more rather than posting things and worrying about view count.

The Mr Black Experiment

Lately, I’ve been focusing on what makes me happy, and how I can translate that into the real world in a meaningful and practical way – my interest are so far and wide that it’s hard to find the things that tie them together, and the transmute them into some sort of effective way.

I mean, I got mad street cred for being a Bardonian follower but how can I translate that into the real world.

I think a couple of post ago, I ended up writing about how with my certain set of skills, I would be good at certain things – this phase is essentially an extension of that.

Of course, I’ve been delving into the tome of Ferriss; reading, watching as much material as my brain will allow me. I’ve been slowly picking up tips from him and integrating in my life.

For example, I’ve doubled/tripled my reading speed w/ just a couple of tips from one of his books. I actually have to slow it down because my brain is at near limit trying to process the information – it’s not use to processing that much information at once, I need to slowly let is accustom that this is the new way now and it better adapt.

I could feel my brain overheat, lol.

Anyways, I’ve been brainstorming on a couple of projects I’d like to get into. It really feels like, the first time in my life that I can accomplish anything w/ the tools I’ve acquired now – both mundane and magickal wise.

Work smart, not hard. 😀

Hello 2017, An Introduction

The 2016 Office Xmas Palm Reader Prophecy has foretold that 2017 is supposed to be the year where I own it and that 2016 could be counted as a rebuild/transitional phase of sorts.

Now, I don’t put much on divination – especially towards far scoping kind of readings, I prefer to put my money on the short scoping kinds; the ones within a month or so outcome, not year(s) later.

Even if I were to bank on that reading, it’s just not in my nature to leave things to chance – what’s the point of being a sorcerer then?

So with that said, time to stack the variables towards my favour. I have a couple of goals I am focusing on this year, trying to simplify it because that’s one of my main issues, too many projects going on. I really want to focus on music, and the quality of my life.

Simplifying my repertoire of magickal techniques as well so that I have the flexibility to activate them on the fly. This also serves to sharpen the tools I already employ, start mastering instead of dabbling on new things. I am still open to new ideas in regards to the macro side of magick (theurgy, HGA, astral planes, etc) but on the micro side of things, I will just be employing certain techniques I already use and try to sharpen them and think of ways of employing them in different ways that has not been done before.

KISS as they would say.

So what does this all mean? I feel like basically, magick will be taking a different role in my life. If this was a basketball team; instead of being a starter, magick would become the 6th man of the team in my life.

Unfortunately, I can’t let go of my “mundane” hopes and dreams. In a different scenario, I could see myself letting go of everything and becoming a vagabond rebel sorcerer but that is not the cards I’ve been dealt w/ at the moment. I can only work with the hand I got, try to pull out a winning deal, and hope for the best.

Sayonara 2016, Allons-y 2017!

New Year New Look

Ah, new years, it’s my most favorite time of the year, lol.

Now I know what the naysayers have been saying about this time of the year but fluckit – I love the energy that surrounds it, I love the potential it brings but to be fair, I don’t make new years resolutions, I especially don’t publish it online. I take this time to set the mood for the coming year, and take some time to make some observations about myself.

This past year has been a decline, a sort of self destruction that should usher something new. I am in the process of rebuilding towards something new, and hopefully something better. If my journals has anything to say about me, is that I haven’t changed much – the core of me, and my issues are pretty much the same, I just added new tools in life to make certain things better but for the most part, I’m still the same – if that is a good thing or a bad thing.

I have to get better, I want to get better.  If there is a game where I want to win it all, it’s the game that is called “Life”.

So time to shift my priorities, where my goals are, where I want to go, what I want to become.

Goodbye 2016, Hello 2017.

A Year End Review

Maybe this is kinda early but what the heck, I do what I want, lol. 😛

This year has been a slow, if not halted, progress with me. Magick has taken a very sidelined position since life has decided to bombard me w/ life stuff that needed to be taken care of.

This is no excuse whatsoever, maybe just a lazy way to look at it. I could’ve done better, but I didn’t. Even to this day, the fire that I had maybe years ago has substantially dimmed down.

But with that said, I don’t plan on dropping this anytime soon, it’s just a thing that’s taken a hold of me and won’t let go. 🙂

Going forward, actually beginning as of today, I am working on reintegrating magick into my life in a practical way – one of the things I noticed was I got stuck into the idea of the Great Work, and the grandeur and fantasticalism of it all. I’m stripping it all down and bringing it back to the fundamentals, no fancy shmanzy stuff.

Every resource I have at my disposal, be it muggle or magickal means, will be diverted and focused into strengthening my mind, body & spirit.

Back into the wild. 🙂

 

 

Teaching An Old Dog New Tricks

So my self imposed vacation is going to be done soon. My birthday is coming up and I’ve managed to get a bunch of stuff done in my absence in the workforce. As much as I would love to stay like this, I need to get back to earning those benjamins, lol – I want a new drumset. 😛

I’m planning to go do a minimalist “bushcrafting” for a weekend, just looking for spots where I don’t have to go far out of the city but far enough from the city, and traffic, so I can have some peace of mind. I’m just looking for foresty spots where I can hide out, lol.

Anyways, I started looking at jobs at the market; what am I qualified for and what I am over qualified for. I would love to start at the bottom again but my resume is looking to qualified – over the decade and the half of being in the machine, I excelled at it. Started as a cashier, became a supervisor; started as a cook, became a shift manager, started in data entry, became a manager, warehouse person to logistics coordinator to operations manager.

You get the idea, I’m the typical over achiever.

A decade and a half of that and I would really just want a relaxing 9 to 5 job. In retrospect, it was very mentally and physically taxing to some extent, to do these managerial jobs day in and day out. My last gig, I was dreading every day thinking what kind of fuckupness will happen that day, what kind of lie would I need to produce to smoothen things out, who is gonna try to give me flack so in turn, I can scream at them, etc etc.

So I look at the jobs I want, and the jobs that I an qualified for, and how far they are from where I live (I’m not willing to trek far for a job) – these are the variables I look at but when I look at jobs that I think are “beneath” me, I get a sense of anxiety and dread.

I don’t actually feel that there are jobs beneath me nor do I believe I feel entitled to judge a person by their occupation, that I think I am higher than them, we do what we can with what we have – it’s my ego, it thinks that I should be working in a higher station since I’ve already reached that height and I shouldn’t go lower anymore, as well the money is pretty low in comparison to what my standard has been as of late ($35+ an hour down to $12ish).

Well, the thing is, when I look at those high end jobs, I also feel that anxiety and dread. The mind and body remembers all the pain and crap I had to go through during those tenures.

So in conclusion, I am confused as to how I should go about it?

Now that I wrote this all down, and somewhat has a coherent sense of what I am thinking – I now feel it is stupid that I am even going through those motions.

First off, there is no guarantee that I’ll get the job. Secondly, I always start at the bottom and work my way to the top.

Keep It Simple Stupid, and remember how you get by in life anyways, charge in recklessly.

It hasn’t failed you yet!

Specialized Mastery

I fear not the man who has practiced 10,000 kicks once, but I fear the man who has practiced one kick 10,000 times.

Simon @ Trainee Golem Builder recently recommended a book to me called “Mastery” by George Leonard.

This was recommended to me already a time ago but to be honest, just never got around to it because there has been so many more modern takes on the subject and I just ended up reading those instead. I finished reading it today and for the most part, the book is on point but since I’ve read other materials already, it’s nothing new – the only thing I probably didn’t like is his definition of a “hacker” (he might’ve as well used the term “slacker” in his terminology).

Mastery, by definition, is learning a system/methodology by the book and having the skills to implement it. Playing a song note by note is mastery, being able to perform a Karate Kata perfectly is mastery, being able to completely read a person is psychological mastery over someone, taking the Hoodoo correspondence class and using those teachings to effectively perform workings is mastery.

I’ve had a very interesting journey with this thing called “mastery”. All of my life, since I was a kid, to strive for mastery was something that has been ingrained to me.

Going to school and reaching #1 in our class for all those years, being accepted into an “accelerated” class because normal classes were too slow for me and I was classified as “gifted”. From learning how to play basketball, volleyball, tennis, breakdancing, krumping, karate, judo, boxing & self-defense. From playing guitar, to learning and hacking computers, to learning how to juggle, to magick and sorcery. My life is littered with things that I achieved and things that I failed at.

Notice though that I didn’t mentioned I mastered any of this things above…

I admit, I’m not one to master something for the sake of mastery, I prefer to be effective – to me, that is what mastery is. That’s why I’m a sorcerer, that’s why I’m a hacker, I now live in a very “specialized” way of mastery. (And that’s why I had an issue with how the term “hacker” was used in the book.)

Bruce Lee & Tim Ferriss are the pioneers of what I call “specialized mastery”.  These guys threw out the idea of mastering a system for the sake of mastery but for the sake of being effective instead.

For all intents and purposes, my Jeet Kune Do is very different from Bruce Lees JKD; mine is going to be hands heavy, with lots of throws, alot more infighting and midrange, elbows and knees. Bruce would be more mid to long range but can fight close if needed, alot more variety  and technique, close out the fight with some sort of power strike.

Tim Ferriss has built most of his life, hacking away at things and specializing in certain ways to take advantage of a position and eventually achieve results. One of the stories of his success was taking advantage of a loophole to become a TKD champion.

With me, when I play basketball, even though I am big and tall, I never liked playing the forward position – I always preferred the point guard/shooting guard position since those were my strengths; I love shooting the ball, I love dishing out cool assists, and I love shutting down my opponent. I’m not very fast (I was deceptively fast, lol, it’s an illusion that utilizes my length and my dash speed) and I’m not a fancy ball handler but I used what I have to put my team to advantageous positions and eventually win ball games.

Throughout the years, these “jack of all trades” types of people has been looked down upon by people or at least, has a stigma on them because while they are good at something, they’ve never actually mastered the system. To my point, these “jacks” are not so one-dimensional as people portray them to be, while they “mastered” one aspect of the system and utilized it to their advantage, we all put in the time and effort to learn the other aspects of the system, it’s just we chose to boost the strengths we have to be more effective.

Don’t get me wrong, there is a beauty in a way that someone who has mastered a system and made it their own. Word can’t describe it, it just has to be enjoyed and worshipped but like anything in the world, there are many paths to achieve mastery and they put in the work just like everyone else.

By definition, I would be a master of none but nonetheless, I would be very effective in a wide variety of situations with the skill set that I’ve amassed. I might not be able to play Canon in D note by note, vibrato by vibrato but I sure can hell play it loud, overdriven with plenty of wah- wahs.

Mastery is in the eye of the beholder. Mastery is in the context of what is required. If you have to perform a kata, knowing the whole thing is likely the thing that would lead you to success, if you are in a street fight – kata will likely not help you but using the techniques learned in a kata to fight will likely help you more.