Essentialism

I’m¬†reading this book called, Essentialism – The Disciplined Pursuit of Less, trying to get some ideas and be inspired.

I’ve always been a big fan of the minimalism movement, even though it’s a little hard for me sometimes because I naturally like to collect things, be it out of curiosity or just survival instincts or I don’t like to waste things I think I’ll be using later on or my splurging habits….I’m actually the worst type of person to be a minimalist.

Anyways, my point was that there was a line that I really liked in the book, to paraphrase – it’s to invest on yourself. We’re so enamoured by the external distractions and stimulation that we discard one of the most important things in our lives; our mind, body & spirit.

Now, there are some schools of thought that totally discards the physical plane and if that is what they want to do, I can respect that but it’s the end all truth – that’s why I’m quite fond of the LHP as well, it strives to reach a next level but always grounded. There’s a reason this plane of existence exists, it’s not a hell for us to try to break out of.

This post has 2 points that I will eventually get to, lol. Just a couple of train of thoughts that came out to reading this book.

One is that invest on yourself, really look at your time and if you think you are doing this much for yourself, allocate 25% more on yourself. Not drown yourself w/ material things but enrich your mind, body and spirit with the things you truly enjoy. If you really want to nap all the time, then so be it, lol. If you’re action extraordinaire who makes James Bond life look like the Hardy Boys, then power to you.

My second point/thought is that minimalism is essentially baring one to the core of themselves without the trappings we put on to hide or blend in or whatever. That’s what I think of magick too, trying to bare it to the core components that can work at the level or any module/technique.

Overall, I didn’t like how the book was written but I like the message and the advice it gave out. It’s very lifehackcentric but TBH, I’ve read most of the tips online already.

Rebel Alchemist

Curiosity killed the cat, or so I was told.ūüėõ

Like how I obsess over things; like chess, or guitar sounds, or the latest tech, or even how something is cooked or made, I put the same drive in magick as well. I like how I get results with it but to me, results are just results – they’re not the goal, I suppose the journey of discovery is the goal, results are a nice by product of the research that went along with it.

Since I was a kid, I liked breaking things apart and finding what makes it tick. At work, at home, how I see people – I guess I’m constantly breaking them down and trying to find their core, what makes them tick – it’s a good (or bad) habit of mine, depends on how you look at it I suppose. It could be seen as a negative since I like to push the limitations and see how far I can go, I do it to people, I do it in magick, the consequences don’t even matter to me, the journey of where will we go is the fun part for me.

I’m surprised my brain doesn’t overheat since I am constantly in overclocked mode.

That’s why I have a special place for the alchemist, they’re like the mad scientist of magick – always tinkering, always experimenting, always on that journey of discovery. I mean we all are I suppose, all travellers of this path, but the stereotype of alchemist is just something held so strong in the mind of others that just mentioning the word will invoke a certain type of imagery.

My mind wandered into this sort of thinking recently, as I tried to catalogue my inventory of magickal skill set/tools in my magick toolbox. My magickal theory and technically, the entities I work with are firmly based on Western Traditions but my actual magickal techniques and practice are very Eastern Esotericentric flavoured РI found it amusing that I have a mish mash of tools that have somewhat formed a cohesive sort of sorcery system for me.

But to be fair, it’s a system that’s definitely me, and the “tools” I’ve acquired are something I’ve acquired through the years of practice and testing and experimenting – even if it “changes” here and there, the foundation is essentially what it has always been.

Cha-Ching

Amen to that, you are preaching to the crowd my good squire!ūüėÄ

Not only a day has passed since I decided to take matters into my greedy hands that things are looking up; if I was looking for an event that proves magickal synchronicity is real, today would’ve been the day.

Lets just say pieces fell into place that makes my work life a whole lot easier, and it only took 1 day of some magicking to get things rolling. Honestly, I only pulled a couple tricks and treats from my repertoire – I didn’t even start working w/ the big guns but lo and behold, I’m a happier man as of today.

Finally get to do some real work, not in a constant state of anxiety where it seems like I’m riding a roller coaster without the safety bars and the whole track is made of wood that is rotting away.

The moral of the story is….there is no moral I guess, you take what you want and damn everything else?

Taking Control

I was reading Jasons post yesterday regarding a persons shadow calling and if you are following your true calling.

At this juncture in my life, I am not in control – not to say I’ve lost control, more so that there are too many variables that I haven’t been able to handle. Certain things needs to be in control for me so when I have to deal with the chaos that is life, my faculties are fully focused on dealing w/ this matter.

Work again has been a primary source of discomfort in my end. The people I’m working for are nice but we are heavily understaffed and all the mistakes end up falling unto me since I’m technically the only employee left on my department.¬†I know it’s not my fault but I do care that¬†the work quality has lowered¬†and¬†I am spending so much time at work¬†again.

I dislike that I am not doing the things I want but my sense of responsibility forces me to ensure that my job is being done as right as possible. I want to run away, a part of my mind and body is telling me to run away, that I don’t need this kind of pain and torture that I can find another job. Another part of me is telling me to grind it out, tugging onto my sense of responsibility.

Realistically, my spiritual level is at normal but my mind and body is weak. I could feel my brain being sluggish, like a computer that is too fragmented, I need to re-format and clear up everything.

What is a guy to do?

Well, I’m shifting some of my priorities;

  • My work on IIH is being downgraded. I am a complete fanboy w/ Bardons book but TBH, the time I spent w/ it is too much¬†–¬†half of my workload is working on IIH side projects. I am keeping my work close to me but I am putting this in low priority for now.
  • Put more emphasis on my mental and physical level, bumping them up to high priority. Focus on simplification and effectiveness. Especially my mental levels, I can tell it is super low at the moment, I need to raise it up. My workload is mental heavy so I need to be on top shape to deal w/ issues that occurs.
  • Do some work sorcery. I’ve been doing a little to help my work but I’m going to step it up. The full works.
  • Redefine my prime directives.

It’s going to be 3 weeks of hell from this point but as the old saying goes, what doesn’t kill you can only make you stronger.

When One Window Closes

My company merger started and I really don’t have a coin in that pot… What I’m really looking forward to is how much it’ll make my job easier, lol, so I can focus on the things that really matters, like my sorcery practice.

Right now, I’m focusing on focusing my mind – strengthening it to the levels it used to be at. I feel that I’m still below 50% but I’m working on it – that’s my focus at the moment.

TBH, if I was to look at my current practice right now, all my levels have dipped below the levels I would like it to be at; physically, mentally, and spiritually – all my levels have gone down.

It’s to be expected, I mean I am working through a big change, and i have to prioritize certain things to make it through.
I’m hoping this new….window of opportunity will be more advantageous for my lifestyle.

Back to the grind, lol. 

Grinding It Out

I sat at home thinking about work…. more like stressing about work. It’s only been a month and I’m already being frayed, it’s not what I signed up for. 

As well, there’s changes that might be good or bad, coming up soon. I should just hold on and grind it out and see where it takes me but currently, I am beat from the long hours and tiring work procedures.

What this really says to me though is my current level of mental strength – to me, this kind of thinking is weak. I need to focus and strengthen my mental strength. 

We all face adversity everyday but it’s how we handle it is the key. Currently, with my mental power being so weak, it affects the other aspects of my life. 

There is no save point where I can reload from my mistakes. I can only move forward, learn, and not make the same mistakes.

The Art Of Kaos Magick 2.016

To me, chaos magick is the multi tool of my magickal EDC kit; I don’t think it’s a religion, I don’t think it’s a system in the traditional sense, I do not put it in a pedestal like others do, I pretty much use it to bend the rules to my advantage – I don’t go extreme right and worship superman or pikachu nor do I think tulpas are my imaginary friend.

I don’t ever proclaim to be a bona fide uber l33t ka05 mag1ck1an but I think I’ve been on the supernatural synchronicity highway long enough to know a thing or two. I was never taught by a kaos master, anything I learned I picked up from ChaosMatrix.org or Phil Hines’ stuff, I was pretty much borne after the psychedelic chaos generation – the information superhighway chaos magickians. From the lingo and symbolism I use, I thought it was pretty much a given.

Chaos Magick to me is one of those modular systems of magick, you got the basics to work with but you can add anything you want on it the more you play around with it, kinda like the plug and play in Windows OS.

It reminded me of a complete martial art that is ever developing, the next set of students will add to the next generations work. A chaote magickian from the 70’s will far differ from a chaote of 2016¬†-while there are threads from the base knowledge that makes it similar, the personalization and customization built in the system and the users who uses it ensures a variety of flavours that continues on to this day.

Kinda like Linux; there’s Fedora, Ubuntu, Mint, Debian, Red Hat but in a nutshell, it’s all Linux but different flavours of style and accessibility.

In a sense, Chaos Magick is more of an arte and a mindset.

We all learn the fundamentals of sketching, painting, colours, symmetry, etc in art school but in the end, the ones who makes an impact are the ones who steps out of there boxes and gives it everything they’ve got in their masterpieces.