When One Window Closes

My company merger started and I really don’t have a coin in that pot… What I’m really looking forward to is how much it’ll make my job easier, lol, so I can focus on the things that really matters, like my sorcery practice.

Right now, I’m focusing on focusing my mind – strengthening it to the levels it used to be at. I feel that I’m still below 50% but I’m working on it – that’s my focus at the moment.

TBH, if I was to look at my current practice right now, all my levels have dipped below the levels I would like it to be at; physically, mentally, and spiritually – all my levels have gone down.

It’s to be expected, I mean I am working through a big change, and i have to prioritize certain things to make it through.
I’m hoping this new….window of opportunity will be more advantageous for my lifestyle.

Back to the grind, lol. 

Grinding It Out

I sat at home thinking about work…. more like stressing about work. It’s only been a month and I’m already being frayed, it’s not what I signed up for. 

As well, there’s changes that might be good or bad, coming up soon. I should just hold on and grind it out and see where it takes me but currently, I am beat from the long hours and tiring work procedures.

What this really says to me though is my current level of mental strength – to me, this kind of thinking is weak. I need to focus and strengthen my mental strength. 

We all face adversity everyday but it’s how we handle it is the key. Currently, with my mental power being so weak, it affects the other aspects of my life. 

There is no save point where I can reload from my mistakes. I can only move forward, learn, and not make the same mistakes.

Read Between The Lines

This week, I found myself unhappy with my system of divination – the source of it is for the most part, the cumbersome and tedious way of going about it. Roll dice, interpret, hold pendulum, ask question, perceive omens, wait and discern.

Maybe I’m a little spoiled by Google, it can do so many things with it that I want a system like that placed in the magickal sphere. Maybe if I had better control or access to the akashic records then I wouldn’t have this issue but well….if I only had Jedi like powers, I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be having these issues anyways.

So I think it’s time to move away from the dices and the pendulums, and do a little upgrading.

I want quick, precise, and intuitive.

I think I’m ok if I spend a little time working on it, and having something that I actually would like and enjoy using.

Now, off to the drawing board.:)

The Art Of Kaos Magick 2.016

To me, chaos magick is the multi tool of my magickal EDC kit; I don’t think it’s a religion, I don’t think it’s a system in the traditional sense, I do not put it in a pedestal like others do, I pretty much use it to bend the rules to my advantage – I don’t go extreme right and worship superman or pikachu nor do I think tulpas are my imaginary friend.

I don’t ever proclaim to be a bona fide uber l33t ka05 mag1ck1an but I think I’ve been on the supernatural synchronicity highway long enough to know a thing or two. I was never taught by a kaos master, anything I learned I picked up from ChaosMatrix.org or Phil Hines’ stuff, I was pretty much borne after the psychedelic chaos generation – the information superhighway chaos magickians. From the lingo and symbolism I use, I thought it was pretty much a given.

Chaos Magick to me is one of those modular systems of magick, you got the basics to work with but you can add anything you want on it the more you play around with it, kinda like the plug and play in Windows OS.

It reminded me of a complete martial art that is ever developing, the next set of students will add to the next generations work. A chaote magickian from the 70’s will far differ from a chaote of 2016 -while there are threads from the base knowledge that makes it similar, the personalization and customization built in the system and the users who uses it ensures a variety of flavours that continues on to this day.

Kinda like Linux; there’s Fedora, Ubuntu, Mint, Debian, Red Hat but in a nutshell, it’s all Linux but different flavours of style and accessibility.

In a sense, Chaos Magick is more of an arte and a mindset.

We all learn the fundamentals of sketching, painting, colours, symmetry, etc in art school but in the end, the ones who makes an impact are the ones who steps out of there boxes and gives it everything they’ve got in their masterpieces.

Over Nine Thousand!!!!!

We just went to watch the Conjuring II, and it was a pretty good movie. I don’t know if that’s how I’ll handle any case but, to each their own.

However, the thing that astounded me the most was after watching the movie, I decided to do some research on the Warrens – I think I did some light research after the first movie but I guess nothing important stuck to my brain.

I did some reading and I was astounded that they have 10,000+ cases under their belts.


To be fair, in my decade + in the business, I’ve dealt with maybe under 50 cases, and maybe under 5’ish of what I would even consider serious. I don’t even consider the stuff I experiment on, sorcery stuff, etc – just the plain ol’ paranormal phenomenon .

And they’ve had 10,000 + cases, it boggles my mind.

I mean maybe they were the only legit game in the business at the time, maybe their popularity helped but to handle that amount of cases is really something, for me, to behold.

In my head, I wonder if they were just gifted in that sense – like destined to do that line of work. They even have a collection of haunted artefacts, CRAZEE!

Either way, I appreciate the good fight. They’re not even using magick swords to take out the bad guys, lol.

Riding That Bicycle

Back to the grind, going for the gold again.

Work is starting to stabilise, I’m getting the hang of the place. Weight is going down, band is starting to become solid again, there’s even a potential little kitten (wink, wink) on the side.

With all that said, with things going up with momentum, some things are going down as well in neglect.

I still need to prioritise certain things in my life. I’m trying not to overwhelm myself but with the momentum on my side, it feels like its easy to add more things in my plate but I shouldn’t rush.

Patience is the word this year, and probably the rest of my life. I have to live like that turtle, patience won that race.

Spoon Feeding

So I’ve been working for a couple of days now, and it has its ups and downs.

It’s good to be honest but my issue is actually with myself, I can’t seem to stop micro managing, even though I am not even in that position to manage… I hear issues, mistakes, someone needs work support, and I know I can do it, so I jump in and just do it – but that’s always been my problem.

I overextend myself and then taken for granted, and then I become unhappy about it – give an inch and they’ll take a mile off.

I know what I need to do but it’s hard to teach an old dog new trick, especially when I’m really good at it.

But I got to do it, so I will.

To the point, a friend pointed out an article in regards to “Outcome Frame”, that it might help me orient what I need to do. I read the article and it asked some questions that needed to be answered;

“What do I want?”
“When do I want it?”
“How will I know that I have it?”
“When I get what I want, what else in my life will improve?”
“What resources do I have available to help me with this?”
“How can I best utilize the resources that I have?”
“What am I going to begin doing now to get what I want?”

I read it, and I kinda snickered, not because I’m being an elitist….more so I think these kinds of questions are common sense (and questions I asked myself all the time).

I thought that we are now in a point where humans needs to be spoon fed information, and not bother thinking about answers for questions in their life – and it’s not just for this; the internet has carved a niche market for people spoon feeding people information.

I could see the advantages but I feel that the disadvantages are greater; either we use information to evolve and grow or become a vegetable, not thinking anymore – just consuming.

It’ll be a sad day when people stop thinking…..