Contrary to popular belief, I’ve done them and still do them to this day. I am a sorcerer after all and my nom de plume is “Mr Black”, lol.
Anyways, while my general tone seem to be happy go lucky type of fellar – I have no problems working one, especially after I’ve personally justified it to myself……Yeah, I guess I’m a sociopath like that (and you love me for it, lol)
Mind you, I’m not a total ass, I haven’t been casting curses left right and center and to every joe blow that looks at me funny. Some of it was for the sake of advancing my art and some was to teach a lesson. I think I only indulged on a curse one time due to emotional heat and I think I took the poor fellars left testicle out (literally).
The reason I’m writing about this is because these past few days, I’ve been asked about it and have had to deal with the repercussions of some of the ones that I’ve done.
This year, my siblings had a big spat among themselves and one of them crossed the line, again. That was her third time doing so and three times the charm as they say. She has attacked people I loved and respected and I wasn’t having any of that – so I threw a curse at her, to physically cause her entropy and teach her a lesson of “the universe deals with asses a certain way”.
I was the judge, jury, and executioner regarding this matter.
Obviously, I thought hard about doing this but overall, it boiled down to her needing a lesson and “curses”, boiled down to it’s essence, is just entropy – magick that causes destruction, none of that fancy over-dramatic segments like in Shakespeare.
So fast forward a couple of months later (this month), she’s at the peak of her entropy – she developed a “sickness” that couldn’t be explained by modern science – she has been losing weight, pale and sickly. This was the point where I decide if she’d had enough, or I take it all the way and whatever the consequence was is on me.
I don’t take things lightly, especially when it comes to magick.
So I decided to take off the curse.
These days, she looks healthier and she seems to be recovering.
Yesterday night was interesting…..
I was going to start my nightly ritual, I start off w/ a zone rite and contemplate on the subtle energies that I summon and get a feel for things.
I then felt very sleepy, and then I felt like my bed was loose and that I can rock my body up and down. What was also weird is that I was able to consciously do this over and over. I then realized that it might not be my physical body but my subtle body being loose so I tried my hardest to dislodge myself but it didn’t work.
Interesting, unexpected, bit though.
And then I ended up doing the ritual that I was actually going to do.
…..No, not that kind.
Before I went to sleep, I decided to practice some consciousness transference. I find that I can only manage to do 2 people in close proximity for now.
Then, when I was about to go to my vital force/elemental accumulation exercise when a little voice in my head told me to stop, and pay attention. Suddenly, I became very groggy and disoriented – like I just woke up from sleep. I was trying to figure out why I “thought” of this while turning my body sideways.
I then felt that my bed was shaking, or vibrating, hard. I was like WTF? I kept checking with my hands to see if it was actually happening and it was. It lasted for a minute then it stopped.
Then everything “felt” normal again.
My thoughts on this were I was about to OOBE; I’ve read certain accounts before and this had a similar description, like my body moving sideways wasn’t really physically moving but astrally, etc etc.
Wish it actually happened, lol.
In those rare days where magick comes at you fast and easy, we sometimes tend to forget that magick will grant us what we desire – in any way, shape and form.
I’m sure we’ve heard, or have, a horror story in magick where it goes awry and while your wish is granted, it comes in a way not expected and prices are paid for it. For the most part, this types of stories are normally associated with “black” magick or demonic entities. Let us remember that infamous account of a mage that asked Bune for money and he got it by his property being destroyed. It can be said though that since an entity from the Goetia was used, and the types of energies associated with said entity, that this can be somewhat expected.
But what about those entities we deem in the realm of light?
As many know, I’ve been working w/ the NAP grimoire for a long time now – and these days, I’ve been working w/ Nitika alot to supplement my lack of stable income. Every week or when I need the cash, I would perform the ritual on a Thursday and expect some money through people and clients – which normally happens. I got into the habit of performing the ritual and getting money that I started to not pay attention to the ritual, and that it just became a habit of sorts.
A couple of weeks ago, I was performing the ritual like normal but there was no response through my normal channels. I thought that I’ve exhausted all of my options and decided to look for other means of getting funds.
Within those weeks of drought, my parents got into a car accident but they were alright and it was so low key that I didn’t even hear about it till we had a casual conversation. Basically, it was the other drivers fault but the point is that my old man is getting a couple hundred dollars for the repair job and he will use that to pay a driving ticket I got last year, that’s the kicker since it is one of the items that needed financial aide and I find it quite opportune for all of those things to happen just so I can pay off my ticket.
So, what’s my point? It’s not only the demons that will achieve your wish in a messed up way – light entities will do it too if it serves their purpose. Personally, I think Nitika is finally getting sick of me and is telling me to get my act together soon, lol – mind you, I have been slacking off so I can’t blame it.
Just please bear w/ it for a couple more weeks, Nitika – I’ll get back on the horse, I swear.
I’m starting to think my family has a long running tradition of spiritualist/magickians in their fold…..
I’ve talked about my grandfathers running into magick, and one becoming a sorcerer eventually and how my siblings have their innate “powers”, and all of that supernatural fun stuff that happened to me and my family members, and I thought that was the end of the stories but today, my mum gave me another one about my great-grandfather.
We were talking about the newly appointed Saint and we were discussing how I find the method of canonization of sainthood to be odd – the procedure doesn’t make sense to me. Anyways, we were doing comparisons and my mum mentioned how my great-grandfather stopped a burning village to turning into cinders by standing his ground and praying profusely.
That is just one cool story that I wish I could’ve witnessed.
When am I going to reach that EPIC level, lol…..