Sayonara EM Forums?

I haven’t been around the online magickal forums lately….Well, I only really dwell around a couple but one of my favorites, up to this point, has suddenly vanished.

I haven’t really caught up with all the details but WTH man?!?!?!

EM was one of the only forums I really enjoyed still, while there has been an onslaught of crap posters, there was still real practitioners in there who share their thoughts and knowledge. As well, it was pretty diverse and most threads will spin into something interesting.

Mind you, we still get the garbage post here and there. And sometimes, I wish the mods would be more strict or around more often. But overall, that was my online haunting place…and now it’s gone.

*unhappy face*

An Antagonist

You know what makes a great movie or a great novel? Some might say it’s the struggle of the protagonist, their journey, etc etc – but who do they come up against to reach that goal?

The Antagonist,

Without a great antagonist, there would be no source of struggle to overcome. Think of movies like Fight Club where the antagonist turned out eventually to be his own psyche. How would the movies turn out without Jack Torrence, Hannibal Lecter or even The Big Bad Wolf. What would Batman do without The Joker, Superman w/o Lex Luthor, Spidey Vs Carnage, etc.

So what makes a great antagonist then?

To sum it up, I believe that they never think they are the bad guys – that they think they are the good guys, and their belief and choices are the correct ones, and that anyone who stands in their way are the villains.

Why did I bring this little topic up then?

Yes, I brought it up because I think I’m an antagonist, that I pretty much fall into that stereotype. Some might point out that maybe I fall under the “anti-hero” clause but I disagree since anti-heroes tend to know they are doing the wrong things but justify the means with the ends.

I think that’s how I view my actions when performing magick and receiving the results of it from the universe; be it a small love spell, finance charm, or just general magick in general. I fully believe that I am right, and that my actions are correct, and that it should be done, and consequences be damn.

So really, what’s the difference between me and the bad guy, lol?

[EDIT] I should really let these rants simmer, I dislike spelling and grammar mistakes but these things just pop out of my head and my fingers do the dancing. To let it simmer would do my rants injustice, lol.

Wandering Shadow Self

Since I’ve upped my magick level years ago and has been in touch w/ my various guides, it has been reported to me that my “shadow” self seems to like to wander around people that I’ve worked with or clients whom I’ve had particularly close ties to.

I just brought it up since yesterday, a client of mine had a dream of Godzilla and he felt that it was me…lol. While I do a mean Godzilla impersonation, I can honestly say I’m not surprised.

Fuck, my shadow self has put on more air miles than I have…he’s been to parts of Europe, Australia, parts of Canada, US, UK…WTF?

Granted, the Godzilla bit is something new – I’ve heard that the most common form my shadow self takes is a lion. I’ve also heard that my shadow self is a little kinky with some (*high five*).

What kind of a degenerate is this guy?

I’ve done some work with my shadow self but I’ve actually never continued or has been granted formal introductions to it. I was especially intrigued with the idea of the type of perspective it will have.

I should really get back to that and see where it goes.

I Am A Selfish King

Inherently, I don’t hold much value to wealth and money..To me, it’s a means to an end, a tool to use for my benefit.

So as a king who does value his kingdom, what do I cherish the most – my people; my family, my friends, my associates, my contacts, my clients, my internet friends, my muggle friends, even people whom I just generally meet from time to time, those who wishes to be at my side – I want them all to be at my side, and I want to keep them.

To me, they are my greatest treasures and I will do everything in my power to keep them at my side, safe and happy. They make me happy, they entertain me, they keep me sane, they provide me with new pleasures and experiences.

Even though I knew about this for a long time now, I never knew to how much of an extent I will act on to keep them in my fold.

Recently, I performed certain acts of magick to banish one person from my department, so I can keep a certain one close to me. Let’s just say my main boss was cheesed that this happened but I am much happier that this occured..I was so invested in this that when things weren’t going my way, I was disheartened to say the least. But my magick has pulled through, even though it was a bit shaky and now I have what I wanted.

But my care for people is my biggest strength, and my biggest weakness – many a times have I been burned because of my blind optimistic trust of others, and while that has happened, I still cannot change my ways because the prospect of new experiences is something I can never let go.

So I am a selfish king, a king who will do anything for his subjects, who expects the same level of commitment from them as he has given them.